I love you. You are easily the best person I have ever known. I feel so much hurt at the thought of what you’re going through now and all your life. I deeply believe that you are doing the best you can and no matter what does or doesn’t happen it will be okay, you will have done enough. I’m thankful for every single part of my life with you. I wouldn’t change any of the worry, pain, or struggle. As deep as my struggle and pain go, is the height of my hope and dependence on God and Christ. I really do believe the same for you. They are the way. When all of us fail you, He is there, perfectly. Usually I struggle with either saving or not feeling, but today I can do better. I choose to feel. To feel sad for you, hurt for you, love for you. But I can’t save you. I’m trying to step out of the way; stop being your Savior because I can’t, but He can. Let God work in your life. Lean on them. I will be loving you every minute of every day.