“That is the miracle of it. We are not fighting it, neither are we avoiding temptation. We feel as though we had been placed in a position of neutrality-safe and protected. We have not even sworn off. Instead, the problem has been removed. It does not exist for us. We are neither cocky nor are we afraid. That is our experience. That is how we react so long as we keep in fit spiritual condition.” Big Book page 85
What keeps you in fit spiritual condition?
Anytime I am off center or feel out of alignment, I realize that I forgot that I need it.
I need AA, I need that circle.
I often think about how regularly I forget. No matter how powerful I felt something, or how changed I feel, I forget. It is just another testament to me of the 12 steps. How you can’t have recovery today from yesterdays program. It’s a daily watering.
I have been struggling lately. Just in general. And I realized that I forgot. I forgot what that circle feels like. I forgot that feeling good now, often means a year of doing my daily series of actions. I forgot! How could I forget?
All I need to do is remember.
Life of an Addicts Wife 